Being my water had broken on it’s own I figured the baby would be here in no time! I was so encouraged. Nurse Emily said the pushing should help bring baby down and really get things moving. I pushed and pushed and it really seemed like I was getting nowhere.
I remember telling Emily that a great epidural is a double edged sword. I loved not feeling any pain, but I also couldn’t feel the contractions and couldn’t really feel the progress my pushing was making (or not making). She totally agreed but assured me that the pushing was helping.
After pushing for some time I began to notice that the pesky little “hot spot” I had been feeling in my lower back was really starting to hurt. I told her about it and she said that sometimes readjusting my position could help move the medicine over and fill in that hot spot, so they moved me around but that didn’t seem to do anything. The pain kept getting worse and worse and the memory of pain from Hayden’s birth came flooding back to me. I knew this pain. It was the same. There was no denying it. I knew in my heart that this baby was “sunny side up” too. And that’s when I started to feel defeated.
I pushed for about 45 minutes and then said I couldn’t do it anymore. The pain was so bad and I felt that if I kept pushing that hard and frequently just to help bring the baby down, I’d never have enough energy left to push the baby out once it was down lower. I asked Emily if I could just try to rest and labor down some more and she thought that was a good idea.
I did my best to block out the pain and rest, but the pain was too much. I begged Emily to do something and she called Dr. Anderson. He confirmed what I already knew and said he belived the baby was posterior and that was causing the pain in my lower back. Emily decided to check me and said that the baby had moved much further down and that I should start pushing again. I was bawling and told her I couldn’t do it. It hurt too bad. She told me to push through a few contractions and see what happened. She thought the pushing would bring some relief and if not we could call Dr. Becker back and see if there was anything he could do to help me. In between my sobbing I agreed.
I started pushing again around 6:30 am. After a few rounds of pushing through extreme pain, I told her I couldn’t do it anymore and that she had to call Dr. Becker and see what else he could do for my pain. She told me that wasn’t necessary because the baby was coming out. Of course, I didn’t believe her, but Robbie assured me that it was. He was so supportive and honestly if it wasn’t for him, I really don’t think I would have believed I could do it. The nurse, I didn’t believe. She had to be supportive, it was her job. But I could tell in Robbie’s face and the tone of his voice that it was true. The baby was close. I could do it.
Emily had called Dr. Anderson back in, but in the meantime called nurse Stacey to come in and help her because she said we were having a baby with or without the Dr. It was happening. Fast.
Just as Stacey got in, Dr. Anderson arrived too. I did one round of 3 pushes and he told me the next push, the baby’s head would be out and I’d have to stop pushing. I gave one hard push and the baby’s head was out. Dr. Anderson told me to give my hardest push and I’d be done. At 6:57 am I gave it everything I had and there HE was. As soon as he came out I said, “I see IT!” (there was no doubt it was a boy haha!) And Dr. Anderson said, “Well, you have yourselves a baby boy!” and Robbie and I just looked at each other and said, “Another boy! Oh my goodness!”
He was immediately placed on my chest and the first thing I said was, “Oh my gosh, he looks JUST like Hayden!” I couldn’t stop looking at him, it was so crazy! I couldn’t believe this person we were waiting so long for was finally here and it was a BOY! Another precious baby boy. A true boy mom. How awesome was this?!
As Dr. Anderson finished up with me he told me that the baby was posterior (which caused the back pain), but as I was pushing, he turned himself the right way. Praise the Lord! This made the actual delivery (and now my recovery) so much better than with Hayden. I am so thankful that even though the pain was very intense and I didn’t think I could do it (again) that I was able to deliver him on my own and without any interventions from the Dr. this time. I ended up with a 2nd degree tear, but the recovery this time has been a million times easier.
I did ask Dr. Anderson if there was something wrong with me that caused both of my pregnancies to end in posterior babies and he said that he does think it is probably something with the way my pelvis is shaped. Both pregnancies the babies were always scrunched up high up on my right side and during labor I had horrible lower back pain on my right side. So they must hug the right side of my pelvis as they’re coming down and hit on the nerve endings in my sacrum. He told me there is no way to know if it would happen again in future pregnancies, but he did say he believes that I will always push longer than most women. I laughed and said, thanks for being honest haha!
8 lbs 11.5 oz and 22 inches long
Of course all of it is/was worth it to see the beautiful miracle that is Brooks! We love him so much!
Hayden loved meeting his new brother. He marched right in and was so excited to see him. He took one look at him and then kissed him on the head with no prompting from anyone. It was truly the sweetest thing!
He also loved the Brooks brought him a present with some really cool things in it 🙂 Brownie points for little brother!
We stayed overnight in the hospital and then left the next morning. We were anxious to get home and start our journey as a family of FOUR!