I don’t know if it’s because we had his 2-year well check or if my hormones are going crazy these last weeks of pregnancy or what, but I had a rough day yesterday.
I am realizing how quickly our time with just Hayden is dwindling. In a matter of weeks our attention will be forced to be split and Hayden will no longer be at the center of it. I don’t know why this is so hard for me, but it breaks my heart.
Every little thing he did yesterday just made my heart burst and tears well up in my eyes. My sweet boy, my first baby, the one who made me a mom. His world is about to be rocked (and so is ours).
I wish we had more time. I wish Hayden knew just how much I love him. It’s really indescribable what this little boy has done to my heart. I never know I could love like this. It’s truly amazing.
And while I am still just struggling trying to understand how I am going to love another baby this much, I know in my heart that I will. I know I am going to look back on this and laugh because my heart will be bursting with love from TWO sweet babies.
As we get closer to meeting his little brother or sister I am going to just focus on squeezing him a little tighter, rocking him a little longer, and just soaking up every little thing he does.